When Grady smiles at me, I think, “There’s nothing better than this!” and then I watch him smiling with Matt and think, “I guess there is!”
As a friend, Matt was fun. As a boyfriend, exciting! And as a husband, loving. Now, as a father, he’s simply irresistible! He’s patient, concerned, curious and playful. He changes diapers without prompting and makes us meals and gets me things if I’m nursing.
Last week I was a wreck thinking about returning to work and generally being a big ol’ worry-wort. I was exhausted from sleepless nights (as the every 2 – 3 hours had returned) and basically broke down Saturday. Thankfully (though he may not think so) Matt was there and I released some major steam. I know this is indeed the hardest job I’ll ever love. There will be hard times, but there’s always more joy to be had than anything.
I have a beautiful healthy baby and a husband who embraces fatherhood. I’m a lucky, lucky girl!!!
Yesterday was the first day back to work. I can't get over how fast the 12 weeks flew by. I will always remember this special time between me and Grady...a unique time, just one baby and being first-time parents. There's never been a greater change in our lives, and we're all the better for it.
As a friend, Matt was fun. As a boyfriend, exciting! And as a husband, loving. Now, as a father, he’s simply irresistible! He’s patient, concerned, curious and playful. He changes diapers without prompting and makes us meals and gets me things if I’m nursing.
Last week I was a wreck thinking about returning to work and generally being a big ol’ worry-wort. I was exhausted from sleepless nights (as the every 2 – 3 hours had returned) and basically broke down Saturday. Thankfully (though he may not think so) Matt was there and I released some major steam. I know this is indeed the hardest job I’ll ever love. There will be hard times, but there’s always more joy to be had than anything.
I have a beautiful healthy baby and a husband who embraces fatherhood. I’m a lucky, lucky girl!!!
Yesterday was the first day back to work. I can't get over how fast the 12 weeks flew by. I will always remember this special time between me and Grady...a unique time, just one baby and being first-time parents. There's never been a greater change in our lives, and we're all the better for it.
It feels funny to say now, since I had cried so much about it before, but it’s not so bad to be working. The worse part is having to pump, because it reminds me that I'd rather be nursing my baby. But, I was able to talk to moms who remember returning to work or who have just recently, and I was welcomed with such big smiles and warm hugs all day. The 3 month break, and looking forward to the end of the day with Grady, have given me a fresh perspective on my job that I hope I’ll keep.
Even still, I'd rather be home, but I think the routine will be good for us all. I must take a break to knock-on-wood….and then tell you that last night was AWESOME in the sleep department! We went down at 7, up at 8 just to rock and then fed at 1:00. My mouth dropped to the floor when I looked at the clock expecting it to say 9:30. He nursed and went down within 20 min. I let him soothe himself a few times and we didn’t get back up until 4. I barely knew what to do with myself. I was so rested. I got my shower in at 5 and we were off on-time at 6:50. For me, who was never much of a morning gal, I’m actually liking these early mornings. Again, knock-on-wood and hope the feeling sticks! I guess I really need schedules and routines.
His babysitter, Julie, is great. She enjoyed their first day and gave me a nice little log of their activities, naps and feedings. I think getting full bottles all day, a regular routine and of course all the attention (which he’s never starving for) helped him with the night.
I just know I’m going to pay for going on and on about his good night last night! But, again, today I’m feeling like a lucky girl!
Even still, I'd rather be home, but I think the routine will be good for us all. I must take a break to knock-on-wood….and then tell you that last night was AWESOME in the sleep department! We went down at 7, up at 8 just to rock and then fed at 1:00. My mouth dropped to the floor when I looked at the clock expecting it to say 9:30. He nursed and went down within 20 min. I let him soothe himself a few times and we didn’t get back up until 4. I barely knew what to do with myself. I was so rested. I got my shower in at 5 and we were off on-time at 6:50. For me, who was never much of a morning gal, I’m actually liking these early mornings. Again, knock-on-wood and hope the feeling sticks! I guess I really need schedules and routines.
His babysitter, Julie, is great. She enjoyed their first day and gave me a nice little log of their activities, naps and feedings. I think getting full bottles all day, a regular routine and of course all the attention (which he’s never starving for) helped him with the night.
I just know I’m going to pay for going on and on about his good night last night! But, again, today I’m feeling like a lucky girl!
5 comments:
a lucky girl for sure!! it is good to remember that,and have that perspective. It is so hard sometimes when we fret and worry about all the unexpected! How wonderful that Grady has such a good babysitter. That for sure will help the transition! Love you Jen. You are such an amazing Mama.
This is so reassuring to me to read this about going back to work and finding a babysitter. Since I will be doing all of this soon enough. You are amazing!!
YOU ARE SO LUCKY!!!
hey jenn! this is aurora. you deff are lucky, i hope when i am married i will be as lucky as you both are. I know it will be a LONGGG time away but i still look forward to it.
o almost forgot..give everyone my love even sailor...i had lots of fun last night. and Chester is still here sleeping on the chair in the addition. :D
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